Thursday, February 3, 2011

Confessions of a Twenty Something

- I'm completely new to this, so I'm hoping I'm doing this right. And by right, I mean am I supposed to do the same topic??
- I'm 16w pregnant with my first child and absolutely HORRIFIED at what happens before I get to bring my bundle of joy home.
- I'm doing a lot of worrying about finances, babysitting, etc. It's not very becoming!
- I thoroughly enjoy wine... and am pretty sad I have 100's of bottles of homemade wine in my basement "aging" because I cannot drink it yet :-(
- My job is really starting to bore me, but I feel like I'm stuck right now... for obvious reasons.
- I'm tired of being tired all the time. When does this end?
- I'm going to miss vacation this year... and so is my husband :-(
- I hate blow-drying my hair. I mean, really hate it! I avoid it at all costs!
- I take off my wedding rings as soon as I get home from work and usually don't wear them around to run errands. People think that's weird. My husband and I both do it. I don't need a ring to prove I'm married.

Ok.. so those are just a few of my confessions. Join Andrea over at Are you Listening to play along too!

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Now vs. Then

I've been thinking a lot about things I know now vs. things I knew when I literally thought I knew it all! It's so funny how things, times, people, etc, change!

Then - I thought pregnancy was all glitz and glamour, and while I wasn't so sure I'd love EVERY second of being pregnant, I was sure I wasn't going to complain. After all, there are tons of people who don't get to experience this miracle.

Now - Now, I know that, although I still try really hard not to complain for said reasons listed above, it's hard. And sometimes, whether I like it or not, I cannot do it, or do not want to do it for the simple reason that "I'm pregnant!".

Then - When I was in high school I thought I, like many of us, was invincible. I'm a little embarrassed (and proud too!)to admit that I didn't have sex in high school. For numerous reasons, but my life was drama enough (or so I thought!) that worrying about being late, or getting pregnant, or losing it to the wrong guy would have been way too much on my plate.

Now - Now I know it's a damn good thing I didn't have sex in high school. While I didn't get pregnant while on the pill, the minute, yes almost literally, that I went off the pill I was pregnant. While I have much respect for many people who have children in their teens, it wasn't for me and I wouldn't be where I am today if that would have happened.

Then - I thought my best friend would be my best friend FOREVER!

Now - Now I know that friends come and go, and while I have a few friends that I call my best, I would rather have one good friend, then all my "best friends" from high school combined.

Then - I used to tell myself I'd never do a job that I didn't ABSOLUTELY love.

Now - Life happens. You have bills, and things you want to do, and more bills. And with the economy in shambles like it is, you take what you can get. I'm fortunate... I use my degree and make good money. But, I defintely don't ABSOLUTELY love my job!

These are just a few silly things I've been thinking about lately. I can't believe everything that changes, whether or not we want it too! What about you... what did you think, then vs. now?

Monday, January 17, 2011

Hello Second Trimester

It's official. Today begins the Honeymoon Trimester. I can already tell a difference (actually within the last week or so I've been gaining energy and feeling less and less poopy!) I'm so excited to get stuff done around my house! My poor house has been neglected (and that is putting it nicely) since approx. Nov. 12 when I just wasn't feeling well and decided to take a pregnancy test lol. I have convinced myself that the dirt and nastiness will be there, and so sleeping should be number one on my list! And it's worked out ok, except for the fact that no one has been to our house, dust bunnies and dog hair are accumulating (sorry if that is TMI!) and my husband has to do his own laundry lol!

I'm still not feeling like I did pre-baby in belly... but I'm feeling pretty dang good, which makes for a very happy household! I'm hoping that over the next few weeks, I just continue to gain energy and not feel like a hog! That way I can get lots of stuff done before this baby graces us with his/her presence!

On another note, I'm pretty much in love with my doctor. I've heard horror stories about women's doctors telling them to gain more weight, lose weight, basically anything surrounding their weight... Well my awesome doctor told me to shoot for a 10-15 lb weight gain during this pregnancy (I wasn't a board to begin with, I know that!) and last time I went to the drs. office, I'd actually lost weight (4 lbs to be exact) and he said that was completely fine. I'm eating fine, my baby is fine, and everything will be fine. One less thing to have to stress out about. I have since put on one of those pounds that I lost, and I plan to stay within .5 to 1 lb a week! And that, is why I'm in love with my dr. For not making me stress about yet another thing during this pregnancy!

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Why Hello There... AGAIN...

Welp, I'm sort of back. I really enjoy reading everyone's blogs, and commenting on them some of the time. The problem is, I don't really have a "knack" for writing. To be completely honest, it bores me. And so, writing stories and memories are hard for me. I wish I had more talent, but come on now, I'm an accountant. I clearly know my strengths :-)

I'm going to try and make a conscious effort to blog. Not everyday, that's unrealistic! Maybe not even every week... I mean I think my life is interesting, but in reality, I bet you guys don't get a rat's bum what is going on in my life! But I am going to TRY and put forth the effort of writing things down. I'll let you know how that goes in.... a few weeks!

First... I'm pregnant. No surprise there! Let me rephrase that... I was SHOCKED when we found out we were pregnant, but our family, don't get my wrong, they were excited, but they were almost like... about time. It was funny telling them because they were so excited, yet some even said... well you've been married going on three years, it's about time for babies. It made us laugh.

On a more serious note, I'm so happy that we were fortunate enough to play the "roll the dice" game and get pregnant. I know so many people that struggled to get pregnant, or are still struggling and I actually was scared to tell some of them. We weren't even trying and I felt almost as though they would feel like I was rubbing it in their face. It took me a long time to get over that and be happy for myself and my family. UGH... funny how emotions work, especially those pregnancy hormones.

Then, after I found out I was with child, I felt FINE. For like 3.5 weeks I had to keep taking tests because I still hadn't convinced myself that there was actually a child in there. My friend who is also pregnant right now just kept saying, in a very loving way lol, "I hate you!", "I can't believe you're not sick at all!", "I can't even look at that food, and you're over there LOVING it!"...well have no fear friends... the day AFTER Turkey day (thank goodness!) I got hit with this overwhelming nauseated feeling. Oh and it stuck around until about 2 days before Christmas! I couldn't have planned this better if I tried. I was sick, very sick actually, but the sickness fell between the two big holidays. I was seriously upset because I thought my Christmas dinner would be Cheerios and skim milk!

I'm finally getting over the constant poopy feeling, and I'm just at the random poopy feeling days. Right now, I can't decide whether my child is wreaking havoc on me again, or whether I'm actually coming down with something nasty. Since I can't take anything, I'm going to have to buckle in and enjoy the ride. We'll see what happens next!

Ok, now that I've filled you in on what's been going on in my life over the past few months, and I promise you that is about ALL that has happened. HEHE... Whoever said pregnant women are more in the "mood" lied, I feel like poop everyday after work and that is like almost the last thing I want. My poor husband :-( To finish off this post, I'm going to leave you with a few things I've learned over the past few months about my body, my baby, and everything else!

1. My child wouldn't stay still for the ultrasound and we still haven't heard a heartbeat yet. I already know this child is taking after his/her father.
2. I never knew I could sleep 12 hours a night and still be tired!
3. I have an undying love for Velveeta mac and cheese! My mom is buying it in bulk for me at Sam's Club.
4. I'm stressed out over the daycare/babysitting situation.
5. I pee alot!
6. I'm sick of water and I still have 7 months of pregnancy!
7. This dry spell better end soon, my heart wants to be intimate, my body does NOT!
8. My mom is so excited to become a grandma! She can't get a smile off her face and every conversation we have is about babies, pregnancy, or ends up there!
9. My mom's sisters, aka best aunts in the world are JUST as excited as my mom. I'm the first with children and they can't wait. They want to help with the nursery, shopping, and ANYTHING they can!
10. I can't wait to be well into my second trimester so I can get my hair dyed :-)